Been a while no?

To my non existent readers, it's been a while since I upload. Not because I have anything but because I'm lazy to. It's just nothing unique has happened in my life, and now I'm back with a topic worth talking about.

Today, I'm going to confess my pent up feelings that I've been holding back. Well, technically I did tell my friends but not too detailed about it and only to my close friend. And if you still didn't catch on for today's topic, it's about my crush.

He has a curly hair. But in a way that is not too curly but is considered curly. He's what most people call short but if me and him would stand side by side, we're practically the same height. I liked him for his looks and he just happens to be cute when he smile. The first encounter that I had with him was when I was walking down the hallway with my friends after school ends, and there I saw him walking alone, the strap of his bag hovered one of his shoulder, he had an unpleasant expression like he just got into a fight with someone or something. What came through my mind at that time? Is that he reminds me of Chuuya. A fictional character in Bungo Stray Dogs. Too bad I'm a weeb huh.

But either way, I found him very cute. After seeing him for a few more times on different occasions, I can say that he always has that face whenever he's alone/walking alone. And he's just helllllaaa cute.

But then I found the problem. I talked to my friend about him and she bravely decided to message him for me. Asked all the questions and found all the problems. He watched anime. Not a problem. But his pfp on his contact is Marin, from My Dress Up Darling. Yes I know what anime it is because I just so happened to watched a few of it. It's basically a hentai anime but never showed nude or s*x, so the best way to put it is an "ecchi" anime. You can search that up I'm not gonna explain it to you. And another problem is that he had "dated" before. You might think, well that's normal isn't it? Well no. I go to a religious school. And easy to say we're Muslims. And he said that the last relationship was when he's in 6th grade.

I don't like a boy who is "cheap". Or basically has dated before. It just screams he's kind of a sl*t. And I know this won't reach the right audience and you might think ,well people can change. But I don't think HE can.

You know what, I should end this. I just started blogging and now are making hot controversies. Sorry for who read this and onto the next one!

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